Sunday, June 16, 2013


Recently I read a great blog post: It basically describes ways to get input that will help with personal growth. It is great, and it has made me think.

Over the years I have been mentored from afar by many great and talented people. People I have studied and learned from with (sometimes) very little contact. Others with a great deal of contact. I have asked many direct questions to fuel my growth and satisfy my thirst for knowledge. I have also watched subtleties in how different people interact with others.

I am so far from the person I want to be, but I am closer than I was before.

Much of my struggle as a human being is in the area of organization. I have spent hours reading blogs and books and magazines trying to change. Recently I have had a few tastes of doing things in an organized manner...I liked it.

The other night my hubby and I had the privilege of taking our turn to host a "Supper Club." For nearly a year 4 other couples have joined us every few months, as we potluck at each other's homes. It is a great time to gather and share and laugh. The husbands actually have as much fun as the wives do!

Sometimes PINTEREST can be my mentor. It can be the source that paints the picture for me of how I want my life to feel. I was actually organized for my company to come over...

Lately it seems like several people I have admired have either fallen off their pedestal or fallen on hard times. 

Some I think..."I used to want to be like you, but I am not sure I feel that way anymore." Others, it is more like..."I still want my life to be like your life used to be.

I am in a time of transition. So far I have protected myself from filling the emptiness I face with filler. I am fighting the urge to avoid having nothing immediately replace the something I lost.

My life is actually already full. But loss can make me grasp for anything to hold on to. Part of this journey is learning to decipher the way people I admire look, and who they really are, and not worrying about how I look, but on who I really am.

Psalm 46:10 says: Be still, and know that I am God.

In being still, I give myself time to acquire wisdom. Sometimes it is wisdom I already possess. Sometimes it is wisdom I must seek out. "Walk with the wise and become wise, for the companion of fools suffers harm," Proverbs 20:13.

I want to be wise, and this summer I want to grow in wisdom. I will make that happen by:

  • Reading materials written by wise people. Classic works of literature, blogs about subjects I am looking to grow in and most importantly I will read my Bible.
  • Spending time with wise friends, and getting rid of useless words and conversation in my life.
  • Simplifying. I want to clear out clutter so that my mind can be more clear.
  • Serving HIM. I have a huge Brighten A Corner project coming up. This ALWAYS grows my character.
I am peaceful. I am excited. I will be growing...

Monday, June 10, 2013


I volunteered to make centerpieces for the 8th grade graduation at my daughter's school. She is in 7th grade. Next year will be her last before high school...I am slightly nauseous as I write that.

There was a request for simple flowers. Daisies. I am not a florist, but I thought, "Why not?"

Flowers in Mason Jars.

It has been said to me in the last several weeks that I seem to have more conflict in my life than most. My daughter's former school was a huge source of such conflict. It grieved my hubby and me. We still love that precious little school that struggles; but it is such a stark contrast to the healthy environment we now call our school.

It allows me to grow. Instead of feeling like I needed to do the whole graduation, I could sign up to do flowers. Even better, I could e-mail the others who signed up, and we could each do a bit.

This amount of order to the process is huge growth for me. This was the day before the graduation.

I long to be the person I am not. Organized. Efficient. Clutter Free.

The graduation was at a home. And the home has sent my mind spinning since I arrived. It is not that I am envious. I don't necessarily want that home, but it was such an accurate reflection of the people who owned the home. It was complete. Finished. Simple. Whimsical. Serious.

I want to make progress in my journey to create a home that reflects me. And I want a homeschool environment similar to the one in that house. (Maybe there is a bit of envy.) I am inspired.

Here's hoping it leads to action!